S C R W S T X

Sat down with Maca yesterday at this little park which was oddly filled with only couples and I suppose I can see why. A small little field lit by a couple scattered street lamps with chairs for lounging. Early on we had dinner next to a couple who looked like they were on their early dates in a ridiculously small but cosy ramen store and it was interesting eavesdropping on their conversation and watching their body language. Maca and I met on a dating app so that made their situation relatable. It felt like I knew what they were feeling. Why the guy thought sincerely listening to his date meant not having a single bite of his ramen. Why they were talking about themselves like they are reading their own autobiographies. The same surface narrative you tell about yourself to new people, again and again. Whilst modern dating is a weird hazy realm to navigate, there is so much to two strangers having a sincere go at connecting, taking time, bearing selves and all, that I really appreciate.

I'm glad Maca came out of my "having to be vulnerable" / putting myself out there and meeting all profiles of guys / having to deal with strangers' emotional baggages (which btw... is something you shouldn't have to do) dating period hahaha. 10/10 worth it.